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You’re a Survivor

First of all, I know, I know, I know. It’s been forEVAR since I posted. Sorry. But this is on my mind right now, at 4:30am, and I can’t sleep, anyway. So, here it is.

So, I know this woman who was attacked maybe a year and a half ago or so. When she told me about it a couple months ago, she said something that worried me. And I wish I had said something then, but I think I might print this out and have her read it when she’s alone. If anyone reading this thinks that’s a good idea, let me know in the comments after reading. Or if you think it’s a bad idea. Just let me know your thoughts.

Anyway, she said, “Yeah, it’s embarrassing, but…” I thought, ‘Embarrassing? Oh, sweetie.’ See, you gotta see how I view it. This woman has survived what many people have not. She is thriving, yes, thriving in spite of what happened to her. And so are you, reader. You are stronger than you were before. Look how far you’ve come from that horrible act done upon you. Look how much you’ve succeeded in bringing yourself back to normalcy. No, you will never be the same as before. But that doesn’t mean you aren’t going back to normalcy.

As an outsider and an acquaintance, it looks like this woman has already come back to normalcy. In just a year! That’s unbelievable, imo. I never would have guessed that she had ever experienced that. It’s something to celebrate.

I was never physically attacked. But I was emotionally destroyed. Long story short, I was made to see my entire future burn before my eyes (metaphorically). And was told, “It’s not burning. It’s going in a different direction.” Bullshit. My world came crashing down and I fell into depression and overeating. It’s been three years and I’m still not back to normalcy. My meds still aren’t fully figured out and I’m fat as fuck.

But, I am a survivor. Like you, I have fought against the desire to hurt myself. The desire to treat myself like shit. We’re not perfect at it, I know. We have bad days. We have days where we break our stand and give up. But, if you’re reading this, know that we have never given up entirely. You and I, us survivors, we’ve made it through this far. You may have a long way to go, but look how far you’ve come.

I hope these words have helped you, reader. And I think they may help the woman I know. But I don’t want to dig up the past on her, either. If she’s embarrassed, she might be embarrassed to know that I think about it, and her, every now and again. BUT I’m a nice person and that niceness inside me just wants spill over and give her something to smile about. To help her change her view about herself, maybe. Idk, what do you guys think?

PS, if you ever need someone to talk to, e-mail me. laitiegrl@hotmail.com. It may take me a while to get back to you, but I will.

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Posted by on June 3, 2015 in Uncategorized

 

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Do You Have Any Recommendations?

So, I was looking for a new book on my kindle the other day. I’ve been on this European Renaissance kick. And I’m still kinda on it, but I also wanted to see what else was out there, particularly for someone my age. I’m twenty-four. So I typed in the search bar, “new adult.” Guess what my results were?

Erotica. Fucking erotica. And more erotica. There were, like, four books that weren’t erotica. And I had already read three of them and am in the process of reading the fourth. Uhm, new adults like things OTHER than erotica, THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!!~

And if it wasn’t erotica, or one of the four books, it was a romance. I don’t particularly like romance. We like things other than romance, thank you. I like fantasy, too. I wanna read about 20-somethings saving the world from an evil sorcerer. I like reading about 20-somethings trying to figure out their lives, like I am. At least, I would like to read about that. That’d be nice. That might help me try to figure out my own life. God knows, I need all the help I can get.

Anyone know any good new adult like that? I found this website that has 65 books that I’m supposed to read as a 20-something, but most of them don’t sound very appealing to me. I want something modern. Something relateable. Even poetry is good. I love poetry. I just suck at it. Writing and reading it. But I try. And I appreciate. That counts for something, right?

Y’know what else I’m looking for? Good books about lesbian couples. I wanna write about lesbian couples, but I wanna do it right. I need to research. And I simply can’t find any good pieces about lesbian love. I have one piece of my own that, I dare to say, is quite good. But it’s only one little piece and I need to do more research to write a whole book involving it, y’know? Suggestions?

Also, if you know anything with abusive and/or unhealthy relationships. I’m always looking for those for my big piece, Birdie.

I’m also gonna ask, since I’m on this kick that I mentioned before, for historicals. Not all of them are Renaissance, but most of them are. I love reading about Elizabeth Tudor, Mary Stuart, her ladies in waiting, Mary de Guise, Diane de Poiters, Catherine de Medici, Catherine the Great, Sophie Dorothea (Catherine the Great’s daughter-in-law), Elinor of Aquitaine, Marie Antionette, Lady Jane Gray, the women of the War of the Roses, the wives of Henry VIII, and any other lovely lady you might think I’d be interested in learning about.

Let’s see… I guess that’s everything. I think I’m just trying to ramble, now. Ramble, ramble, ramble. Well, I hope y’all have a good day. And thanks in advance for any recommendations! Later!

 
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Posted by on November 12, 2014 in Uncategorized

 

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I’m Gonna Be a Nano Rebel

I have so many projects. Jelsa and Batley, and My Maria, In the City of Lamira, Dancing on Glass, The Old Mot, and Birdie. I just can’t add another one. So I’m going to rebel. Of my 20,000 words of Birdie, I’m going to add 50,000 more words in November. Shouldn’t be too hard. I still have a lot more I need to do. Including re-doing the whole beginning. I already published a piece of the story, but apparently you can rewrite a piece and then publish that rewrite. So I’m going to completely redo the first part of Birdie. Because my self-published Birdie sucks. Ass. All my friends and family loved it. Said “I just wish there were more,” as if they were critiquing it, lol. So I’m writing more. A lot more. Tens of thousands of words more, lol. I’m pretty excited about this piece.

It’s mostly about unhealthy and abusive relationships. I don’t know why, but I’ve always been fascinated with abusive and unhealthy relationships. So this is a bit of an overview of bad relationships that women (and men) should keep an eye out for to not get into. Behaviors that people might see in themselves or their partners that might show them “hey, this is a bad sign.” Especially for new adults, people my age (twenty-somethings). Because now we’re getting serious about settling down or what have you. Y’know?

So, have you ever had an unhealthy or even abusive relationship? Want your story to be told? But probably not with your name? Tell me all about it. E-mail me: laitiegrl@hotmail.com. Subject title: Chocolate Makes it Better. I’d love to include your story into Birdie’s.

 
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Posted by on September 29, 2014 in Uncategorized

 

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