You Don’t Know a Damn Thing About a Book by its Cover

29 Sep

After I finally decided to leave the pointless fight about feminism on youtube, I get another freaking notification from someone else on the same video on the same comment. In the comment, I told the youtuber that I, as a fat woman, appreciated the video. This new person goes “you choose to be unhealthy, hahaha.”

Like, seriously?


I think the youtuber in the video even MENTIONS how you can’t tell a person’s health by looking at them.

Not that this person really gave a fuck about my health.

Just because someone is fat, doesn’t mean they’re unhealthy. Just because someone’s thin, doesn’t mean they’re healthy. You don’t know shit about a person by just looking at them.

Let’s say the fat person does happen to be unhealthy. Do you know why? You don’t know shit that’s going on in a person’s life. Personally, I have PCOS, which makes it 10x harder to lose weight right at the start. Then, I’m kinda really struggling with my mental health right now. I’d rather be certain I won’t kill or hurt myself before I even try to bother with my weight. Trust me, my mental unhealth will kill me sooner than my body’s will.

I hate exercise with a seething passion. Y’know that whole endorphin bullshit they talk about when you exercise? Idk about you, but for me, it’s bullshit. I don’t get happy when I exercise. I get exhausted, out of breath, sweaty and gross, and miserable. Even if I just walk the dog around the block. It’s still exercise, it’s still work, and I still come back exhausted, out of breath, sweaty and gross, and miserable.

Food is wonderful. I think my tastebuds are a little extra sensitive, which is possible because I may have Asperger’s. So when I love a food, I LOOOOOOOOOVE it. When I hate a food, I hate that shit and can’t eat it at all. Food is a comfort and a pastime. It’s for celebrations, comforting, anything. And I’m always hungry. I HATE being hungry. Hate, hate, hate. Can’t stand it. Used to be able to ignore it, but that was when I had stronger reasons not to eat. Now, I have food right in the kitchen. Or right down the street that I can bring home for now and later.

Why the Hell should I bother to try and lose weight when my body’s working against me from the beginning (PCOS), I hate exercising, and food brings me so much joy? Because my body will kill me if I keep going this way? What’s the point of living longer if the quality of my life is brought down like that?

I absolutely hate, hate, HATE trying to regulate myself. I don’t want to have to bother or worry. Nor do I want to be different from everyone else. Everyone else can do whatever the fuck they want. They don’t have to regulate themselves like I would have to.

Happiness is so hard for me to grasp these days. I hold on tight to the happiness I can get. And a lot of the time, that’s food.

I can’t make myself do things I don’t want to. I have no motivation. What’s the point? It’s not going to make me feel better. I’ve tried. So what’s the point?

Anyway, why the Hell did the fat-mocker think it was OK to laugh at me? Why is it EVER OK to laugh at someone who’s different from you? Who makes different choices from you? It’s NEVER OK.

Then the original asshole, the anti-feminism one, told the fat-mocker that I’m a stereotypical feminist that deletes things I don’t like. Listen here, fucker. I reported those comments because they were HARASSMENT. Why are you sticking around talking shit about me? Are you really in so much need of self-verification and ego-boosting? Pathetic.

Fuck Youtube. This is why I never leave comments on there.


Posted by on September 29, 2015 in Uncategorized


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2 responses to “You Don’t Know a Damn Thing About a Book by its Cover

  1. afatgirlsguide

    September 29, 2015 at 11:18 pm

    Fuck the people who tell you that you have to fit into their mold to be beautiful. Fuck the people who make it harder to love yourself because they are not decent human beings and fuck society for telling them that it is okay to judge someone based your outward appearance. I am sorry that happiness has been hard to find these days, and I know that this is not helping one bit. As a fellow ‘fat’ person I can understand why that comment is out right absurd. Like congratufuckinglations you can see that I am fat. Snaps for you dick-wad, now when you have something useful to say let me know. It is so sad that in their mind looks negate all other factors, or that they can’t seem to realize that being fat does not equal being ugly. You can be fat and beautiful. That being said I am sending positive vibes your way.

  2. lradams86

    September 30, 2015 at 6:40 pm

    The Youtubers….gotta love em. So much I could say too sweetie, as we were dealing with them all last week or so now. But, let them hate, and be absurd. The more it continues with them, they show how weak they are and spineless. They say it behind a laptop keyboard, but in front of your face, they won’t have the balls to say it because they have no spine. I really feel awful they have been doing this to you babe, it’s a sign of our society however. The 1st Amendment gets abused in more ways than one nowdays, and unfortunately, Youtube is the place it happens big time at.

    Just remember how strong you can be babe, and keep this in mind…eventually those people will get the hint when nobody is paying attention to their hateful words and ignoring them. They will move on to other videos to whine about, until the same happens there too. And then, there will be no videos to go to because nobody wants to hear them speak, it will come full circle to them and they will see that.


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