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I’m So Happeeeeee~

I’m sorry I haven’t written lately. I’m just not sure what to talk about because I’ve been so happeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~. Happy happy happy I’m the happiest person on the planet. Cymbalta, I love you. You’ve made me so freaking happy!

But I’m only generally happy. I’m not happy with my job. Did I tell you what they did? Yeah, that. So I’m looking for a new one. I’m sad to say I turned down a really good one. But it was going to be harder and less forgiving than the department store. I certainly hope I can find a good job soon. I keep getting calls from people on Monster.com. So I think I’ll update my profile on it and stuff. My mom also found an employment agency, instead of the temp agency I’ve been using. They don’t trust the temp agency. Though I have full faith in them. Eh, oh, well.

Also, my editing career is kinda taking off? My friend advertised me to her 4k (40k?) followers, and I got a hit! Question is, will I get another one after her? I don’t even know if the girl liked my editing or not :/. I’m pretty straight and to the point. I don’t sugar-coat things when I edit. So…yeah…

But it was fun, editing. I really enjoyed it. I hope I can do that for the rest of my life. Well, and publish my books.

My counselor wants me to do something fun. To do something that makes me feel like a kid again. I don’t wanna feel like a kid again. I’m an adult. I want to feel like an adult. She clarified herself, saying she wants me to do something that makes me feel free. I still don’t wanna do it. Unless I drink or something. It’s acceptable when you drink alcohol or do drugs. It’s what happens. But you can’t act silly and be free just for doing something normal. That doesn’t work.

Well, I guess that’s all I have to say. I hope ya’ll have a great day :D. Keep that chin up, your depression will get better someday.

 
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Posted by on March 25, 2014 in Uncategorized

 

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The Straw that Broke the Camel’s Back

I haven’t written lately. But that’s because I’ve been THE HAPPIEST PERSON ON EARTH!!!~

Why? I think it’s because my meds are finally working! I’m just so happy all the time. Even when I feel like crying, I can’t cry because I’m just too happy! Though, I did cry two nights ago. And I did get over-stressed that night, too.

Why? Because I got written up for being sick.

That’s right. They wrote me up. For being sick. Technically, for calling in. But seriously, did they want me coming in constantly throwing up and shitting myself? No one could cover me that night, so I had to put up the “register closed” signs and I ran to the break room. My boss finally found me and hugged me. She promised to fight for me and the other people that got written up for stupid things, but there’s really little she can do.

This is the last straw. I’m leaving my job. I’m looking for another one. I’m done with this shitty-ass place.

Now that that’s out of the way…

I still have a really hard time with money. I spent over $200 on makeup o_o. Like, seriously, Lacey? Yes, seriously. And I’m soooooo behind on my bills. I just…want stuff… And now I look so pretty!

Well, that’s all I can think of for now. Those of you still struggling with your depression, don’t give up! There IS hope for you! I promise! I thought I would never be happy again. But I am! It’s wonderful! Don’t give up!

 
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Posted by on March 17, 2014 in Uncategorized

 

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My Cute Little Antidepressant

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Got him at an anime convention yesterday 🙂

 
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Posted by on March 9, 2014 in Uncategorized

 

Bad Girl, Lacey

So, things haven’t been going all too well. I get episodes of just wanting to cry and go home. A lot. Often. At work. So, I decided to try and balance that with a night out with a girlfriend. I have to work this morning so I planned to be home by ten. Eleven at the latest. Things didn’t go as planned.

I’m on Welbutrin, Cymbalta, and Abilify. So, I can’t drink. Buuuuuuuut~ drinking is so much freakin fun. AND it makes me happy-go-lucky wheeeeeeeeeee~. It’s a twofer. I wasn’t going to get inebriated last night. Especially because I had to drive home. But, as I said, things didn’t go as planned.

I got so, very drunk. I couldn’t see straight. I had to hold on to my friend to walk (though that was mostly because I was drunk while in these skinny little wedges). We couldn’t be happy in one place so we basically bar hopped all night.

Luckily, my friend lives nearby the bars so we went to her house and slept for like four/five hours.

God apparently has a way to punish adults what with their parents being unable to. I had left my car at the bar, of course. So I took some socks from my friend and walked in the snow about half a mile? Quarter of a mile? In just socks, leggings, a cami, and my coat. Oh, and I got rug burns because for some reason, I couldn’t walk to my friend’s bathroom. I had to crawl. And blisters, of course. But the blisters aren’t too bad.

Then I came home to a mini-lecture. I liked it, though. It showed my parents cared about me but they spoke to me like an equal. They didn’t talk down to me like they normally do. Or maybe they did. Maybe I’m just growing up and having more confidence when it comes to them. I don’t know.

So, that was last night.

 
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Posted by on March 2, 2014 in Uncategorized

 

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